Some people just know it all. They grow up and just know that they want to be. Like `when I grow up I want to be......´ a firemen, nurse or a mom of 10 children. When I was a kid I found out I wasn't one of those kids. I was a dreamer and I had plenty of ideas for my future self.
18 years ago I wanted to travel the world and/or be the host of a travel program;
15 years ago I wanted to be a pre-school teacher and a musical star but I realized singing wasn't my talent;
10 years ago I wanted to be a high-school history teacher, and be a cheerleader while studying for it;
9 years ago I wanted to be a lawyer;
8 years ago I wanted to be a psychologist;
6 years ago I wanted to be a lifestyle designer, graphic designer, game designer. You name it i just wanted to design stuff get my creativity out there;
5 years ago I wanted to be a communication professional as in creating commercials. The plan was to finish my study as quick as possible, get a career and a house afterwards;
4 years ago I wanted to be a editor of a fashion magazine;
3 years ago I wanted to be a social media specialist but my dream still was to be a editor of a fashion magazine, also I wanted to live together with my boyfriend at the time. My dream was to study abroad but I decided that I rather stayed with my boyfriend;
2 years ago I was still dreaming about being a editor but got more focused on reality, any job at a (online) lifestyle thing would have been what I wanted. I wanted to do something different, and I did. I ended up doing the minor International Aid and Development instead of the minors PR or branding. I went to do volunteer work in the Philippines which turned out to be one of the best things I've ever done. Which I didn't even knew before. After that I wanted to do a internship in the Philippines, got one but got scared because I was in a complicated relationship;
1 year ago I wanted to have a job in the lifestyle PR scene. I also still got a desire to travel the world. I finally got rid of all my fears. And decided to safe up money for my next trip, more volunteer work, traveling around I didn't had a plan I just knew I wanted to be out there living the life while not having a serious job.
While graduating and getting my bachelor degree I got scared. I lost my purpose. As you can see at "5 years ago" my original plan was to get a career a house and "be serious" after I would get my degree. While being at that point in life I didn't feel like actually being ready for that. And why the hell would I do something against my will? It took me a while to realize that I'm the one who puts direction in my own life. Just that most people choose to get serious after their study doesn't mean that I had to... So I started traveling with the idea "I probably get bored of traveling and get serious when I go back home". Not happening. Plenty of time of that after my next trip!
Right now?
I'm a dreamer and for now that's all I wanna do. At this moment my ideal job would be a payed blogger, but one with freedom. So I can decide what I do, when I do it and how I do it. Because freedom is what I cherish the most right now. My desire to travel is definitely stronger than the desire to follow a ´boring career-path´ and settle down.
But as you've probably seen by now, I change my mind quit often so let's make this list again in five days years..
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